I am back to blogger!

Hey everyone it's been two years since I have posted on blogger. I've decided to start blogging again since I have the time. A lot as changed since I have posted. My son Joseph is three years old now. He is very smart and has a lot of personality. I love him to no end. Joseph and I welcomed a new family member into our lives. I am newly married to my husband, Kyle. I didn't think that I'd find love again since (big)Joseph died. I've finally found happiness since all of my grief. It's amazing what God can do to provide for our needs physically as well as emotionally and spiritually. God has mended my heart like He says he does in scripture. He is my rock and foundation. I am going to try my best and keep posting as often as I can.

My Pumpkin Prayer (Joseph's 1st Pumpkin Carving)

My Pumpkin Prayer




Dear Jesus, as I carve my pumpkin, help me pray this prayer:

Open my mind so I can learn about You.
(Cut the top off the pumpkin)





Take all my sin and forgive the wrong that I do
(Cleanout the inside)



Open my eyes so Your love I will see;
(Cut the eyes shaped like hearts.)
I’m sorry for times I’ve turned up my nose at what You’ve given me.
(Cut a nose in the shape of the cross)

Open my ears so Your Word I will hear;
(Cut ears shaped like the Bible.)

Open my mouth to tell others You’re near.
(Cut the mouth in the shape of a fish.)

Let Your light shine in all I say and do! Amen
(Place a candle inside and light it.)

My BirthVerse

www.birthverse.com

This is my birthverse:

1 John 2:17 NIV- The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

Lyrics to a Song

Here's some lyrics from a song I hear on the radio alot. This song describes exactly how I feel.

Lyrics to I Still Miss You :
By: Keith Anderson

I've changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don't sneak up
they still find me and remind mey
eah you come back that easy
try restaurants I've never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn't like
two drinks in you were by my side

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you

I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby

I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you

I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak

and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you

I still miss you yeah
I still miss you
I still miss you...... yeah.... yeah.....

Some Recent Poems

Forever In My Heart

February 8, 2009

Forever in my heart to keep
Awhile I will have to weep

For you my love, you’ve gone away
But to you, my heart will still obey

My heart will always be yours
While everlasting love pours

I will love you more forever
I will think about you always
I cannot let you go
How I still love you so



We are like Cranes, You and I

A love grown to be so divine
Such a love to share with thine

Forever bound are our souls like two cranes
Eternally together our love remains

When a crane’s mate dies
It never seeks to find another for compromise

It’s like you and I
My love for you will never die

4-28-08 Revised
5-24-07 Created

Me and Joseph Uriah

I was looking at pictures of me when I was a baby and then compared them to pictures of Joseph. I am so excited and astonished at how genes play their role.

A Discovery of a Lost Poem

Tonight I had some organizing to do in my room. It was long needed. I have a trunk in my closet that has lots of papers, journals, some of my other writings in it. I came across some things that I haven't read in a long while. Some things that I read kind of gave me a different perpective about life. Things that I haven't thought about in a while. There were even since things that I wrote a few years ago that just made me laugh. Can you just write the funniest things even though they weren't so funny at the time? I also found some lost poems of mine. I call them the lost poems because whenever my computer crashed a back in summer of 2007, I lost some of my earliest poems. I thank God that some were printed on paper or at least drafted on scratch paper. I found one that I was so grateful to still have. I wrote it circa 2005. It's doesn't have a rhythm pattern. It's free verse, i guess you could say. It's called "The Gift of Living"

The Gift of Living

Life a magnificent picture drawn,
to the simpliest touch of authenticity,
This is the touch of God's glory

In the beginning when this world was created
The devil, a serpent soon deviated.
With sin, he corrupted human nature
to degrade God's precious purity

With an apple eateb by Eve from the golden tree
sin was born to thee, to corrupt the world with impurity.

Nevertheless, our Savior Jesus Christ came
He gave His life so that we can be forgiven

Life is sacred because of Him
God has given us a gift to make life great

With sin in us all, we now have to be strong
Life is a gift from God, don't give it away to do wrong